I used to dream, from an early age - to write a novel, or a trilogy or something like that....

But...after realizing more of my PTSD -

- first - that i have it
- second - that i get carried away from reality...
- third - now that i know what it is i see i will not be able to avoid getting
triggered - and this can result in stop functioning - when i JUST start again

Just...reading some reviews on books i like and realizing what exactly i like about them made me miss it..sigh

I don`t know...

I feel already triggered and need to do this counting back that relieves me and puts the past where it belongs and me - safely present.

wow - it HAS BEEN A WHILE since i expressed myself!