I am a hot mess today. Well, was yesterday too.

I can blame it on the pregnancy to others but I know without a doubt, it's not. I have had these episodes for years. Just harder to control them now. Instead of silently dealing with the frustration, sadness, loneliness...I burst into tears. And that in and of itself is frustrating.

I was having a perfectly good day yesterday. Then I find out my husband is going to be doing something without me today (wednesday). Something I wanted o do. I go from fine to pissy, sad, dejected, angry in a few hours. Like a kid ho doesnt get her way. Irrational? Crazy? Yes. But here I am feeling really upset about this. And I can't shake it. He called this afternoon and I started crying again.

Can something bump you out of mania (full blown or hypo) into depression?

I've only been tracking my moods for a short time so I'm still learning where the curves, peaks and falls are...I'm just curious if this is part of it or of I never really hit a high or if I'm imagining everything. I want to arm myself with as much knowledge as I can about bp and really any other mental illnesses because I have been struggling with issues for around 15 years.

Any insight to cycling? Do you just pop in and out? Wake up to them? Slide Ito them?

Thanks!