Oh Blue..... Damnit. I completely understand not wanting to place him outside of your home. I mean... your his mom, right? The one who keeps him safe and sound. Ugh... it must feel impossible right now for you. Double Ugh!

can you use the cuts on his arm as a reason that will resonate with him that he should be taking his meds? Tell him how proud he would make you if he would just take them. That's the fight, Blue, is getting him on them. '

My heart goes out to you and your family. Take care of yourself Blue... you have needs too. Don't neglect them for too long... promise????