My husband feels like he's a fraud all the time. I have never been hospitalized. My T says that I'm good at talking myself down and so is my husband. We also don't know how to ask for help when we need it. I get benefits and my husband is trying to. We can't pay the 180+ a week for the services / medication we need to keep ourselves alive. I say alive because neither of us have any resemblance to stable but outside our home we look awesome. We are great fakers even to each other when we feel they need it. We're 'required' to let our significant other know we aren't doing well. Make-up is my signal, sweats is his.

It takes a long time to be remotely being okay w. accepting benefits and even then there are times that you are not okay with it generally that's a sign we are not doing well. If you need the structure see if you can do out-patient because you are self harming or volunteer so if things go bad or you need less hours it's possible w/o getting fired. If you are not in therapy then try that too.