My brother molested me while i was sleeping at age 9, he was 18 at the time. He never knew i know, coz as a child, i wanted to protect him, so I remained 'asleep', and who knows why, but I continued to remain silent even after learning that i shouldn't.

Me and him got into what I thought was a misunderstanding via text. (he's abroad) then out of the blue he tells me to leave him alone he unfriended me from fb, coz he doesn't want negative people in his life who ATTACK him

I tore him a new 1, told him I know what he did to me, i protected him, and this is the thanks I get? I said I want zero contact, in exchange 4 my silence.

I was expecting denial, god I hardly believed it sometimes, i was sleeping afterall, could've been a warped nightmare, PLUS the memory was suppressed for 9yrs! Well, he diminished that doubt.

He told me to tell everybody, it would set him free. I didn't want to set him free! Then I realised he was trying reverse psychology, and even if he was 'free', he wouldn't be welcomed back home...

So I did as he asked...

20yrs later at 3am! I fowarded the entire convo, to relevent parties to find whenever they login... Siblings, nieces, close cousins, and his ex-wife, coz she has daughters with her new husband and he was gonna meet them in January...

I told my family not to bring up what I sent them. I just wanted them to know.

Scared I've wreaked havoc tho.

idk what i'm looking for tho, re-assurance maybe? My alarm for work's in an hr, my eyes are messed up from zero sleep and crying. Dont want to go to work, cant breath properly and cant stop the tears, but I don't want him to affect my job either. Idk what to do.