I just feel like everything is falling apart. I absolutly can not function in life at all. I cant make friends, I am angry at everyone. I hate everyone. I am so antisocial right now its like every single person i come into contact with is the most annoying SOB that walks the earth. I think ive been screwed over by so many aholes in my life and its just coming out right now all my frustration with all my loser ex boyfriends with psycho problems and those that didnt appreciate me or all the things i did for them and now there sitting in jail where they belong it makes me happy but why am i still angry? I mean I miss him but I hate him at the same time what is wrong with me? I feel so bipolar right now and I probably am, I just dont know how to get out of this mood im in and I really need someone to talk to right now bc I feel i may be going a little insane. I am just so tired of taking peoples **** and im not going to take it anymore I am going to tell people what i really think about them from now on. Im not going to just laugh at someones idiotic joke that is more rude than funny half the time i cant STAND PEOPLE!!!! I am also coming off of about 8 months of steady dose of methadone and suboxone and maybe my brain is taking a while to get used to it i dont know. I have been blocking out everyone for so long and now that i actually have to deal with people, its like so hard. But anyways I am rambling really bad because I am just SO tired of everything im tired of sleeping all the time and having no motivation to do anything at all and constanly thinking about HIM and what we had when we had **** and i am so much better off without him then WHY THE HELL can i not stop thinking about him? whats up with that? like seriously!?