I agree completely. I've come to a good place with therapy and my T also. I realized it while driving home after having dinner with someone I've worked with a long time. She approached me about going out. She asked about making plans to do something fun in a couple of weeks.

I was driving and realized for the first time in my life, that I am worthy of friends. I don't have to cling to people to get them to stay around. They want to stay around because they like me or love me.

Then I thought, "T will love it when I tell her this tomorrow!" After the intense session last week where my words of gratitude brought her to tears, we hugged warmly, and she reminded me she loved me...I obsessed a little on that good feeling...for about 2 days. Then it went away. I even tried to tempt it by thinking about it on purpose and I basically just shrugged and thought, "She didn't tell you nothing you didn't already know." I am finally secure and healthy enough to truly appreciate the healing that is occurring in me. I therapy too. It is helping me become the me I want to be!

So my drive home was happy, thinking about my new friend, seeing T tomorrow, looking forward to seeing H when I got home. Life is good and I have therapy, T and me (and God) to thank!

Rainbow, it is an honor to walk this journey with you. You are one tough, honest, and brave lady!