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Originally Posted by Tinkerbell.
I promised myself that I wouldn't post anymore of my crap but I am hurting so bad so yeah this is depressing so beware 
Firstly losing my mum 3 weeks ago well I can't stop crying, Everyday I cry over her, I know this is to be expected but I think of her every moment of the day and the fact that I didn't talk to her in 6 months, What if she died hating me? I will never know I got to know 2 hours before she died (my families fault) They could of told me the day before when she took ill, I wonder if mum told them not to tell me, It keeps going around in my head.
Last week my daughter was diagnosed with autism (I was expecting this) She was also diagnosed with Selective mutism too (never heard of it) I have read up on it now and it does make sense. I feel like I have failed her.
Yesterday next door neighbor posted a letter through my door telling us to stop running all over the house, this is untrue, they are the ones that are noisy, It is like the earth is swallowing me up lately, I can't take anymore. |
Hello, I am bsgirl. BE STRONG GIRL. I lost my youngest cousin, like a sister to me, I am an only child, with not Knowing where she was, or did she want to see me. See, her Big Sister, my oldest cousin DECIDED FOR ME THAT UNDER NO SHAPE NO WHAT SO EVER WAS SHE TELLING ME WHERE MY "sis" was. So, She passed away. And I willl never know. My son had ADHD, but the ODD, is what and where I failed him. See, I am divorced ,single, and disabled. So, his father abused us , served time in jail for it, and black balled me about our son. What was I to do? I felt TRAPPED. Now i am paying for it. MY SON WALKS OVER ME AND USES ME, AND YA, somewhat afaird of him. bsgirl67