I used the title, Thereapeutic Schismata, both because there was a schism in the relationship, but to also depict how my therapist fell off the cross (from idealization) and now is just one of us regular people. (Why not add drama to the title? I do)

Anyway, last session I told him that this session was the last. I walked in and he said, "We are going to have to terminate at this point." I looked at him and told him that this was already the plan. He might have forgotten. Anyway, the words didn't phase me at the time. Basically we were having a transference/countertransference interaction that had been repeated and repeated but never resolved. I was glad that he was honest with me. We left on good terms, at least on my side.

He gave me a few referrals but I'm not sure whether to take a break or start again. I'll see how my emotions are within the next two weeks or so and then decide.

I have felt so empty and ungrounded lately. My plan is to put on a facade and go through the motions, pretend I'm a real, whole person. My life is changing so much, who knows where it will end?