I don't know if this is what a breakdown feels like but I know its very close to what my PTSD/depression is like when it's not controlled. You are fortunate to have a T that could talk them into not hospitalizing you. I just got out from a 72hr hold by a untrained police officer who seemed to think he knew more than my T.
I too need a lot of quiet too. Too many things at one time, loud noises or even just the failure of too many things to go right in a short time seems to short wire my brain. Normaly Im the one people turn to in a crisis, not right now though....
Deep breathing helps, talking with my T, Ti Chi....all the best.
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…Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …...
Desiderata Max Ehrmann
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