Hi, I think that you are doing better to think that maybe you are closer to your goal this way by choosing food carefully and (restricting) Anyway I am happy with myself now and I did just that. Except for occasionally I stick with the plan of eating just small amounts of real healthy stuff and controlling myself. I understand you well. I binged and purged (especially) Got really thin but really UNHEALTHY!
So do this restricting but write down each meal you have eatten and maybe a few words about how you feel (I DID THAT)

Also, just be accepting of your (INNER CHILD-that means no puking or purging either-so be real sure you only eat a healthy smaller meal.)

Just believe in yourself, with your Bi-polor. I DID IT AND SO CAN YOU>

The important thing to remember is just not to let the gain of weight hit your ribs too much but other than numbers on the scale, If I WERE YOU I WOULD JUST THROW OUT MY SCALE . Try to be very GOOD to your INNER CHILD because she is all that matters, not the numbers on the scale or how crummy you want to beat on yourself for eating and feeling sorta full in your tum tum. (COME ON YOU CAN LIVE WITH A LITTLE FULL TUM TUM ONCE A DAY - aw it aint gonna hurt nothin) I love ya and you hang in there you pretty thing. YOU ARE PRETTY Yes watch what you eat- eat small meals a bunch of times a day and DON"T throw up or do the other thing anymore. You are a success. I did it and have proof. I feel like my ideal weight and am going strong. Hang in there. LOve RAZEL