I was really worried that I hurt one of my t's feelings the other day. I tried to call him up but he was busy. I felt so guilty and wanted to cut myself. I told a few people this and when I went to my PHP today they made fun of me for thinking that I might've hurt his feelings. This really hurt.

They would've reacted so much more differently if I had cut. Don't they care about my feelings? Apparently not. Right now I'm debating on cutting, just to show them how much it does bother me. I am so angry with them. It's like I'm crap and they're the belittling committee.

Am I too nice? Is the problem that I care about others too much? I don't know anymore.