At 18 your brother should have known better than top molest a little girl. At 9 you could in not way be responsible. You were a little child. Your post may wreck havoc for awhile, but at least he knows that his actions have consequences that he cannot escape.

I was raped by a 21 year old man when I was 14. He was my older brothers friend and drinking buddy at the time. My brother was complicent in the affair. I have no idea where the jerk is at this point and my brother is not telling me if he even knows. I cut off contact with him pretty much after my father died and hadn't seen him for years until recently. The point is that rape as a child hurts and causes anguish for a woman that takes years to heal and in some cases a lifetime. Like you I protected my brother because I was so afraid that my father would beat the crap out of me if he found out and I would be blamed. Then I got so angry that I acted out with a lot of self destructive behavior, casual sex and behaved like a wild party girl.

I wish so much to reach out and give you a hug. You never asked for this and certainly did not deserve this. It is no wonder that you are angry about it and his attitude. I wish you well and just to let you know that if you walk through the muck life can be better. Old wounds can be healed and life can be better.