Imagery, Dubblemonkey; that's the answer for me and my sanity. I picture it in my mind as it
bubbles up from the unconscious and then let it drain away from my being completely
just as if it were falling into a depthless cave somewhere in the universe.

Just show me the right images and I'm very much alive again. I couldn't find them
on television and that's why I dropped it. Since then, I've been more inclined to
create consciously some of the images I want to have in my life. That's living, too, in part.
I can find it in the appropriate works of art, though.

It's the creative side demanding attention, I think, not so much from others but from
within oneself it requires attention.

And, yes, it's all okay. It beats by far not having a sense of beauty or not being able to let
it affect you emotionally. That's what the artist is all about, and it's a gift, too, which not
everyone has the ability to enjoy. That's why we get funny looks sometimes from people
unable to even sense the power in the aestheic. It's foreign to them. I rather enjoy being
bipolar at times like that. I think you do, too, as do others on the forum. That's why it's
so bluming hard to let you get away!!

So I see you're functioning on all cylinders now well. Remember to keep it simple: that is, don't let the worthless thoughts deter the beauty from the moment:let the images into your soul one at a time until you can let them float away into nothingness where they can no longer affect you negatively and you have, instead, absorbed their beauty fully.

For me, that's why it's so necessary to find health in the positive. The negative just
gets in the way, frankly. Makes me wonder how it would be to be a unipolar and have
it affect me only in the positive--not to be able to even recognize the negativity in life.

Love your imagery, needless to say.

Genetic