I'm more lost being symptom free than I am with them. I know how to live with them... not without. I feel like all of my development stopped in my early teen years and I am stuck being 33 and lost now. honestly, it was easier when the depression and the hypo were my main focus in life, cuz now I'm as lost as one can be without them. So no.... taking this much time off has led me into a different kind of depression and anxiety.