I had a good last appointment. As predicted T2 pulled into the parking lot only this time 5 mins till 10am :-)

She thanked me for coming to my appointment and she told me she wasn't going to charge me for the appointment which I thanked her for. I also didn't stay the full hour. I stayed for about 30 minutes total.

I told her I didn't feel safe and contained in the therapeutic relationship with her. She then commented how I felt this way the moment I met her (I didn't tell her the why when I first met her). I told her when I first met her I felt negative towards her but I got over it and actually was starting to form an attachment to her and then things changed (her being chronically late and being defensive about it etc.. something I didn't talk to her about today). I also told her I felt like there was some sort of power or control going on between us but I'm not sure what it is or why (I'm feeling this from her side but I didn't say that).

She thanked me for telling her the 'why' for it being my last appointment and then I asked her about the local colleges/university and the different psychology programs, what I'm doing this fall for school and the support group I'm going to be a part of in September.

She then told me she had a name of a therapist I could go see who specializes in trauma but her style is a little bit different. She then assumed I would be taking time of from therapy for a while (she does't know I'm going back to T1 - I didn't want to tell her and possibly hurt her feelings).

I showed her the book I recently purchased and told her how much I love it. I also thanked her for what I did learn in therapy with her. I told her she's very good at zeroing in on my inner critical voice in the therapy room and because of that I'm very aware of it and I'm working on those self critical thoughts/feelings.

She said in closing that she enjoyed working with me and thought that we do like each other and her door is always open if I choose to go back to her for therapy. I told her I do like her (and I do but we aren't a therapeutic 'match') and I thanked her for what I did get out of therapy. When we both stood up I was going to give her a hand shake and decided to give her a hug. And it felt great. Why? Because she is a human being just like me