"Should have a full time job" is not the same thing as actually having the job, Lost. I hate to harp on this, but I care for you and want you to feel better. NOW is the time to feel better. NOW is the time to take control and DO something to help yourself. There isn't going to be a better time later. Your T has suggested residential and he knows you best, right? He has your best interests at heart, right? You trust him, right?