This is basically a list of things that are in fact impossible for me to accomplish when I'm severely depressed.

I wish people could understand that depression is much more than a state of mind. And that I have as much control over it as I have control over the sun rising and setting every day. When you're as depressed as I've been over the past month, the hobbies that I cherish become meaningless wastes of time and effort. "Keeping positive" means nothing. I don't have time or energy to be physically active because I can't sleep and I work 45 hours per week and spend most of my extra time either trying to get some sleep or seeing doctors. My diet is fine, I don't eat red meat or chicken, I don't drink soda, I don't go to fast food restaurants, and I eat candy and chips once in a blue moon as a treat. My lifestyle is fine, my mental state is what's f'd up.

Why is this so hard for everyone to understand?