Feeling there is NO WAY OUT of this illness. I am sorry for complaining and whining.

Feeling so alone. So tired of myself. I really hate myself so much. I am lost and don't know what to do. I can't even leave this fricken apt. Managed to get the laundry done and that's all can do. Haven't been outside in 2 days. Anxiety and panic has overtaken me. There is nothing left of me. I am tried and ready to be done.

Sorry again and ty for listening
Jen