I am a master of disguise and can appear fine when I feel awful. And on the few occasions I have felt fine I feel silly and guilty for all the fuss and like I should be able to keep it together better as its so much easier when you feel ok.

I spent the last six years knowing I had something that was like bipolar but that I was making it up, and that if I just worked harder things would be ok.

The thing I have found the most hurtful since beng diagnosed were two peoples comments when I told them.
1- it can't have been that bad, you still managed to finish your degree. Yours must be a minor case of it.
2- have you been in hospital? No? Oh well, you must be fine, are you sure it's bipolar?

those two were like a slap in the face. Haha most people said "oh that explains a lot" and laughed though.