I've been progressively slipping into that dark hole....and I realize much of it is due to my inaction with fearing some very important issues that I'm faced with (unemployment running out soon - no full time work - possibility of losing my home, as a single mom - feeling so alone)....

...When I get to this place, I find myself incredibly silent and empty...

....I saw T today, and he decided to take a "tough love" approach with me. Telling me that he always thought of me as someone who didn't back down to challenges and that he would have to change his view of me....that my life is better than a lot of people, many people have it rougher than I do, so don't start feeling sorry for myself...that my life is a lot better than it was...etc.

...I felt awful before my session....and even worse after my session.

I asked him if he was minimizing what I'm dealing with. He said no, but then started reciting horrors of people who survived 40 days in the water surrounded by sharks, and how what I'm dealing with is "cake" compared to that.......which felt minimizing to me.

He told me it was "tough love"....Well, it's not working for me. Not at all.



T will be going on vacation in a couple weeks, and I have one more individual session before he leaves. I'm wondering if maybe it'd be worthwhile to give myself a few weeks of distance to try to "snap out of this funk" on my own. Now that I know how he sees me, I don't want to risk feeling any worse.