So I think my borderline personality is being challenged here, and I am sure you will understand. I wrote to him - because I felt like it and wanted to be upfront! - that I miss him very much and I want him to find a solution for the care of his mother so that he could come.

He responded with a rather detailed account of the steps he is taking to find such care. So, yes, he is working on it - he is trying. But he did not write that he misses me back...

And that pretty much ruined my afternoon. I am so sensitive. Of course, I did not have to write to him that I miss him - I did not have to expose myself as vulnerable. I chose to. And now am paying for it...

So to sum up, I think I am not a disposable thing but things are not quite looking up yet romantically. Not yet.

Thanks for reading...