Thanks, everyone, for the support.

About 3 years ago, T used a similar approach on me - and to this day, I haven't forgotten the hurtful words he said. I did let him know the following session that it didn't work for me and how hurtful it was. We worked through it.

I do plan to let him know that his approach wasn't helpful....I don't react well to being kicked when I'm down....some people may need that in order to be jolted into taking action. It doesn't work for me....in fact, it creates more of the opposite affect for me, because I have a tendency to interpret it into so many other more harmful things....and it leaves me less likely to want to share what I'm really feeling with him....MY OWN THERAPIST....

Blech.....

I know what I need to do....I know what action I need to take....and I told him how incredibly fearful I am...and that fear paralyzes me....So, let's just add his disappointment in me to the mix. That's a wonderful freakin cocktail for me to swallow right now....

UGH.