Yes, especially right now. I feel my lives in shatters but it is not. I have to remind myself a lot to be kind. If it wasn't myself I would feel that the person accomplished something. Do I want to get off the ride and be 'normal' ummm only if it's at the top. I don't know what I'd be like with out my dx's. I have to fight with myself to try and lessen the roller coaster but yes I'm in the same spot as you right now and it's sucky!