There are pdoc's out there that will listen. I'd start from scratch. I want as little medication as possible that makes me functional. My pdoc has been very careful to only put me on medication that I agree to. It doesn't help if you are not willing to take it. I'd really as your T what she would do in your situation. I ask my pdoc that all the time. You could also have bp II which predominantly depression. Best idea is to start from scratch.