I finally was able to download a copy of my timetable for the fall semester - I'm going back to school, full time to retrain after being mostly unemployed for 2 years.

I have to take 6 classes, 3 hours each. These are all compressed into classes from 4-10 pm, Tues., Wed., and Thurs. I have no idea how I'm supposed to get through 6 hours of classes with no dinner break.

The only upside I can see from this schedule, is it will allow me to participate in the Seeking Safety program at my psych hospital. Seeking Safety is a program for people with PTSD and Substance Abuse Problems. I've wanted to do it for a few years, but this is the first time it's worked out for me.

I'll also be able to continue with my aftercare in my rehab, although I'll have to move from my current afternoon group to a morning group. But I'm relieved that I'll be able to keep going to aftercare.

The biggest downside for me, is it means that I'm going to have to change my AA homegroup which really upsets me, as I've been a member there for 3 years, and it's my favourite meeting in Toronto. I have a pretty good idea of where I'll wind up as there's a meeting Sat. evening just down the street from St. Clare's.

I know when my brother here's my schedule, he's going to push me to get a part-time job, but I honestly don't think I can handle working beyond my part time teaching and 18 hours of classes.

I also feel it's important for me to keep my focus on recovery activities because if I don't get a solid sober base, I'm never going to be able to hold down a full time job.

Just feeling a little overwhelmed at the upcoming semester.

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