I still want to know - without doing drugs. It often comes into my mind when I have an experience that might give me a little taste of it. I think everyone has an experience where they think they see something out of the corner of their eye, for example, but when they look, there's nothing there. I'll try to draw that and think about what it would be like if I did see something skittering across the floor that wasn't there.

A couple of days ago I was driving, and something touched my neck. I think the shoulder strap had flipped over and touched me, but my first thought was that a large bug had landed on me. It kind of freaked me out. My first thought was to try and ponder what it would be like to experience that as a hallucination. Would I even be able to continue to drive if it felt like a large bug was walking on me? [I realize tactile hallucinations are rare, but I work with what I've got.]

As I said, my son's issues are different, and that's even harder to try to imagine. Paranoia. The idea that others are putting thoughts in his head. The idea that others are hearing his thoughts.

Once newtus put a drawing up of her depiction of thoughts rushing into her head. I think about that picture often and try to imagine what it feels like. I simply can't understand it. I can't imagine it. I can imagine seeing or hearing something that's not there, but the thought things elude me.