hang in there, it is tough out in the world today, and dont feel ashamed or bad about things, lots of families live together, in some places it is custom to leave your family and move with your "husbands" family. just take a big deep breath, close you eyes count to ten shake your hands and slowly scream out all the air, (use a pillow to muffle the sound if you need to) if you have one, talk to your doctor, tell him the stress is not letting you get restful sleep, he may suggest taking an over-the counter sleep aid, until life starts back up, or if that does not work prescribe something to help you relax. and please, if you need a friend to talk to, someone who has been there more times then they want to admit, I am here or like MedKev said things will get better, you just have to pick yourself up and tighten those boot straps, wipe off the tears and tell yourself, I hit the bump in the road, I lost it, everything went to hell, but I deserve better and if I am going to get better, I have to do it, nothing can stop me, start marching and make things happen for you, the only way Medkev got his first job was because he was not looking for work on his own, I did a lot of foot work, going out, getting applications, going online filling stuff out, emailing his resumes for him, until he found a job, if you need help or would like help, I would be willing to do some of this for you, I enjoy it, I cant hold down a "real" job but I can sit here and send a few emails for job listings and stuff your way.Would love to see both of you on top of the world! PM me if you want me to help you, or at least show you how to get started. Good Luck and lots of hugs.