Shayatanica, if you have, as you say, an antisocial personality disorder, there isn't much that anyone here can really say that will cause changes, although you have been given good advice, in my opinion. As you know, psychotherapy does not benefit individuals who suffer from that illness, and to my knowledge there are no medications that will stop the antisocial behavior. You still should probably talk to a psychiatrist just in case a medication might temporarily benefit you.

It's really very sad, and I'm sorry that you have created a situation for yourself that can only lead to loss of friends, money, and happiness.

The problem really is the behavior, perhaps not in your thinking, but certainly others are being affected strongly in negative ways by the conduct.

Maybe if you read a little about the antisocial personality disorder by Dr. Hare who wrote "Without Conscience" and "Snakes in Suits" you might have a clearer understanding of what type personality disorder you have and find out what happens to those who consistently act in the way you are conducting yourself right now.

I am sorry that you have the disorder.