perhaps its not socializing you despise, maybe its that you are socializing with people who are not like minded? Doesn't mean you have to go clubbing or join a group, cant you just sit at home with another and watch a movie ? IMO depression and lack of interaction with people ARE related, even if you don't want them to be. You may not recognize that need or want to recognize that need, or think you don't even have it. Could this be a defense of sorts? Even if you had a discussion with another about how you DON'T need each other?