we all understand it, because we all have it. but we still have to fight it. it doesn't hurt to have a list of things to try....it won't cure you like it won't cure me. but maybe you could pick one thing and focus on that while you are seeking treatment. I have to stay on top of my depression constantly and the only way I can do that is to practice whatever techniques I can, to what ever degree I can at that given time. I know it is frustrating but try to assume positive intent here.