I am in a verbally and emotionally abusive relationship with the meanest cruelest man you ever met. I am not allowed to work, have any friends and very little contact with my family. I am 1000 miles from any family. I am very isolated. I cant do anything right and cant do enough. I am lazy even though I take care of the house, do the laundry, mow the yard, work in the garden, and pay the bills with MY money. We are not married and no children. I am called names, critisized and belittled on an hourly basis. I was diagnose bi-polar II a few years ago and have been on medication but even my Psychiatrist said I wouldnt need meds if I wasnt in this situation. I have contacted the Womens Shelter here and they will take me in for 10 days. Then where do I go and what do I do? I am so lost and so scared I dont know where to start. I feel like I have been reaching my hand out for help but no one will take a hold and help pull me up. I am at the point of losing my mind or having a breakdown. If I had insurance I would go to the hospital. I am 54 and starting over at this age is beyond fearful. I just want to hurt myself or end it for good. I cant suffer everyday like this. I really need somewhere to go till I can get on my feet. I never had any children so I dont have them or grandchildren. Most people have family or friends that provide mental and emotional support. I am all alone. Can anyone please please help me before I do something to stop the pain?