So, I have spent the past week or two getting as high as possible. I felt like it doesn't effect me, and it doesn't change how I am. I was wrong. The only thing I remember from that time...is that I couldn't remember anything bad that happened in my life. (I guess that's good in a way.) But I hated not knowing why I was really depressed. It's been about 10 hours since the last time I did any kind of drug, and i'm already realizing that all it does is make me feel worse. Something that should make me happy, and make me have fun...just makes me more depressed than I was before. I'm done. I have finally told myself that I refuse to do this anymore. I really hope I can do it, this time.