Oh wow. The relationship between my T and me is NOT abusive! I know my involvement with T is questionable and I'm trying to make sense of it and work through it with him but this thread has nothing to do with the sexual relationship. Now I regret posting the other thread(it's good that I did because it was helpful but this is not that thread).

I'm trying to do the right thing with my T. I did call a few other Ts but I can not leave current T because it's too hard.

This thread is not about my Ts unethical behavior... I appreciate all the posts but I don't want to be judged, I'm trying my best. Can we let the sexual relationship I have with my T go and focus our energy on different questions/problems.