I'm so sick of the invasive-ness of therapy. My T doesn't even talk that much but somehow things get dragged up from the grave all the time. Therapy keeps getting harder... my emotions and feelings are very intense... they're unbearable. I've been in therapy for a long time and although my depression and my problems have "gotten a lot better than they were" I feel like I have more problems than I did when I started. It's one problem after another. Once I think I'm OK, I find another issue to tear me up inside. I ****in hate therapy. My ****in T has me hooked, it's like a ****in addiction. I want out but the feelings are too intense, it's like they're wrapped around my throat and I can't get loose without choking myself.

I just want to cry. Therapy is so ****in stupid. I don't even know how it's supposed to help in the long run. Initially it seemed so helpful but everything collapsed and I'm trying to do the work in therapy, I'm trying to do the right thing but everything hurts so much.. I want to be better. I don't want to NEED therapy anymore. I'm so sick of it but I can't stop.