(((( reece )))))
You are very brave to acknowledge your problem.
That is usually the first step.
I am/was not an alcoholic, but I am recovering from drugs. The first thing I did, after reconizing that I was a druggie, was getting off them completely, and it is extremly hard, but you have to do it to not be a druggie or alcoholic anymore. PM me anytime. I hope I could be of help!
Be safe,
-megan-