Thought I was getting back on track with this sleep bull***, then last night I took a Lunesta, trying to change it up from my usual Xanax so I don't become dependent on it.. lay half asleep / half awake in bed for three hours til I finally gave up at 7am and took 1mg of Xanax. Now I feel like a zombie. I can't socialize today because I'm too out of it.

This has been my life for the past year, and it's been getting steadily worse.

Before you give me tips on how to sleep.. I've tried them all. Bananas, exercise (not too close to bedtime), magnesium, melatonin, talk therapy.. EVERYTHING. Nothing works.

Short of jumping off my roof I don't know what to do anymore. I just don't see a way out of this. I can't life my life because I'm always so zonked out of my mind, between lack of sleep and hangover from meds. I don't know how much longer I can go on like this.

Is anyone else out there experiencing a decline in quality of life because of this?? I feel like I'm all alone here. Everyone I know has experienced insomnia at some point, but they somehow overcome it.. I seem to be cursed.