My mind is taken over with so many obsessive thoughts about therapy and psychology and theories and definitions and practices. In all of that, I think I have lost myself.

Am I even a person anymore?
Have I lost my freedom to think for myself, to define myself?

Why am I so obsessed with these people, these therapists, who know so very little of myself and my life? Why do I invest so much in them?

I spend every waking moment thinking about these things I have read in books or websites or forums about psychotherapy, or thinking about interactions I've had in psychotherapy. I think I've ruined myself. I don't know how to cut myself free.

I wonder if I would heal faster if I just cut myself free of the whole thing and found an entirely new and different life somehow. Maybe I need to move to a tropical island and build my own house by hand I just wish the thoughts would stop. I don't want to spend my every moment in my week planning and thinking about the 1 hour I have in the therapy room. I want to spend my 1 hour in the therapy room planning and thinking about all that I want to invest in during my week.

Just some thoughts.