Bessel Vander Kolk, the one my therapist wanted me to read his articles teaches at that same yoga school. They have a whole bunch of people giving workshops on different topics there. They have a "trauma sensitive" yoga class they teach at the trauma center he heads in Boston. She showed me an article he wrote about the effect of trauma on the brain. Trauma survivors have traits in common. I definitely have the hyperarousal with stress, the heightened startle reflex (my former boss liked to yell at me just to see me jump in the air), intrusion I'm not sure of but I wondered if that could take the form of the intrusive thoughts I have, emotional numbing not sure of, I do have difficulty expressing emotion except intermitant explosions of anger. Liking or clinging to what's familiar. It does sound like me. I'm not sure what she is wanting to teach me. These are biologically based changes I think. The article mentioned medication, but I'm not sure if she is wanting to lead me in that direction.