I don't engage in relationships because I know I am less stable when I try to do that and really I don't think there is any right person out there for me. I am in my late 50's too. Maybe I should just close that bad chapter and just keep on going alone until it's over. I hope that my son will be able to function in the world on his own. It ends badly but maybe it was just as bad for them from their point of view. Could be I'm the one that's unable and that makes my partner unhappy so they leave. Maybe best not to try to do things that cause me and others pain.