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Originally Posted by alone in the world
I admit i am well connected to MH services in the community but sometimes I think it is to much. my depression makes me want to escape through sleep that is med induce after 3 nights of no sleep and feeling like I could care less I took a cocktail of almost everything I have and slept like a baby. The point is after meeting with a caseworker she noticed my speech was slurred and now she wants to be in touch with everyone else. I believe I know just what is a safe amount to take and know I will wake the next day but everyone else thinks differently. Had to admit to myself I am taking a risk but I can not stop when the world around me is caving in on me. feelinf so sad having to admit that now I am not sure how to proceed. I have no will power. know what my T will say but what scares me if what if they think I am a threat to myself, I have a kid to think about. feeling so confused, lost, unwanted and alone.  |
Hello alone.....I am so sorry about all you are going through, and what I wish more than anything is that I could give you a huge hug and let you know that you are a precious spirit, no matter what the voices of depression are telling you. I have been in the darkest place I could ever imagine, and I feel so very much for you and where you are. (And I have also had severe sleep problems for the past many months.) Maybe it won't make any difference, but I want you to know that I am out here for you, and will be thinking of you tonight and sending prayers your way. Many warm thoughts ~whimsy
ps.....PM me any time if you want.