Hi Dexter, I have just read what you are going through and the replies.I don't post much on here but I am in avery similar place to you right now and I think you are doing really well. You sound like a rational and caring person, you know whats happening and are dealing with it. I am also struggling to cope, been trying to set up a routine with work keeping me busy, I'm not consistently creative, I write sometimes but mostly I read or tidy up a lot. I don't want to be in bed all day but sometimes I feel so exhausted. I have been told by my T that I don't have a depressive illness but aI do have a personality disorder with traits similar to borderline. I am not on meds, just T.