Thank u friends....
I feel currently my hobby seems to be the internet....i dont know if it is good that i addicted to this,
someone suggests me to run,
he runs a lot when he was in depression years ago,
every afernoon he runs miles,
i feel physical exercise do helps some, but it so hard to keep it, and persist,
i wonder how do u make the exercise or a new habit new hobby keep going and not quit ?when u read or write or draw, sometimes it is very tired and very boring to persist....too...?and no energy to keep doing...
how when times that u want to quit, how to take it up again? ....
and actually when i was younger i ran and danced a lot, and i was always outside my apartment, could not sit and stay long inside the room....but now i stay at home all day and not wanna go out ....
someone also wants me to dig out the root of depression firstly,and if i could dig, they said i would know my real hobby,
then it is my family co-dependant issue, i try to do everything to please them and later please everyone the people ,and finally my energy was all drained......
(cuz i was brainwashed i believe what they told was true and i must do that mission)