If you have a documented "disability" vocational rehabilitation may be able to help you with a trial job. You might want to wait until you can see a professional, it would be better than putting a lot of stress on yourself to hurry and find something and/or decide a course of action on your own. Going through the job search is stressful enough for people without pre existing issues. Don't obsess about how bad a particular job might be either, nothing good comes of things like that.