*sigh* I know this is absolutely none of my business ... especially because I have very limited contact (my choice) with them, but I am really confused right now.

I found out on Thursday that my brother, his gf, my parents are taking another "family" weekend together (meaning something really fun that I am excluded from)

The reason I am not invited is because my (hideous) mother and/or sister will be there so the men in my family choose their presence over mine

The things they do together - the activities, vacations, trips - are fully paid for and things that I really love doing and seeing as well. In fact, many are things that I loved dearly that I wanted to do originally but I was always "blocked" because I initiated it. They never really showed any real support of my stuff...yet, then they all went ahead and did it themselves...as a group

I feel as if they hijacked my life.

At 2k a head, not including accommodations or meals, they are up at Pebble right now having a wonderful time. And I am sitting home, eating grilled cheese sandwiches, alone, worried about oaying my bills.

Growing up, every interest I had, every thing I loved doing, all the things that were lovely and fascinating and fun to me they showed 0 interest in. They judged, invalidated and put down every single thing that was important to me.

And here they all are, doing the SAME exact things for years, without me. I just dont get it.

It seems like for the longest time (forever in fact) they absolutely enjoyed breaking me down and seeing me miserable. Being squashed like a bug...until I was finally just a shell. Unable to barely get by.

*sigh* I just dont get it