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If I'm understanding correctly, you're becoming hyper-vigilant & are worried that traits of you which the OCD took out of hand make you inherently bad. And that's simply not true. This is just another issue of the backdoor spike, I think. Liking scary stories & violence don't automatically determine whether someone is good or bad. I can understand wanting to stay away from them until you get control of yourself & would actually highly recommend it. But there's no need to demonize yourself, whether it's your old self or new self, just because you have changed. You were in the grips of something you couldn't control for a while. It wasn't an active choice. It takes a while to find yourself again & figure yourself out, but you can't live in fear that you are or were a "bad person".
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