((((Shish)))) I have very troubling dreams, as well. Especially after sharing here where I feel supported, validated, related to. I wondered about that because I found so much understanding - finally - and I felt relieved and grateful. And then, sure enough a night or two later, I would have an upsetting, very symbolic dream about the very thing I had felt so much better about earlier. That is how deep these hurts run...the damage.

I am so sorry this happened. At first when this started happening I thought "great!!!!i just cant get away from her / them. Even in my beloved sleep!"

And then I realized, for as painful as it is, it was part of the healing process...which is actually a good thing. It seems as if you are taking a step forward

Hugs to you,
R

Ps, after i posted my embarrassing thing about my family this morning (it was eating away at me), I went back to sleep. And yep! I dreamt about my sister. Ewww. But this time, in my dream, I shouted to a group of people who were being affected and hurt by her as well who were equally confused and hurt (and had been blaming me about something I did to protect myself from her) and they all listened to me. And said to me and to each other "see! I knew it! That sister is awful, conniving and horrible."

I woke up feeling upset but then relieved....In my dream, after a million waking years, I finally had gotten through to people and no longer felt like the "bad guy". Even if it was just a dream.

You were empowered in your dream...you had the police (very symbolic....protectors for / of you