Rayna nice posting. Reese Get some phone numbers of people you meet in meetings. I would not hang to much with another new comer you see how you are feeling being new. use the phone and contact the winners in AA. I am an Addict and Alocoholic. the first year for me was hard but after that it got easyier. For me I am so glad I had it hard for the first year I went to a treatment center after an hr they through me out.When I went to sleep they had a hard time waking me up from two days of using when I went to sleep because I could not wake up so they could check me they through me out. I bagged them not to but they did I went across the street to a garage they called an ambulance for me. Took me to the hospital after a week they through me out no ins. the day i got out I used crack my drug of choice. that nite I tried to kill myself I fealt if that is all there is I wanted to die someone came to the hotal I was at and got me to a hospital they got me into a treatment center again after detox they had me leave but they helped me get a place in a halfway house, the owner knew I did not have a job or any money but he let me stay their. I did get a job after a couple of months And when I left that house I did not owe any money. I caught up. I now have just over 15 years my sober date is Nov. 09 1990. If you need to pm me I would be glad to talk to you.