It feels great when I do I'm doing something to help. I helped make dinner today, and kept wondering if I was doing simple things right, and it felt really good when she kept telling me "good" and "perfect" and things like that. Made me feel like I wasn't just screwing things up.

Of course, the tiniest things still really get to me. I remember I hadn't washed my hands and told her that, but she didn't really realize, apparently. I forgot there was a sink so close by and thought I had to leave the kitchen. I didn't touch any food with my hands, made sure, but still. She didn't make a huge fuss of it, just a bit of surprise, but still, I felt like I had just killed her cat. I apologized, but I was still thinking about it during dinner. I'm still thinking about it now over an hour later!

It's always the little things that really get to me. I still think about little things that happened years ago. Like how in Grade 2 I couldn't remember what a word was on a test. My eyes happened to wander onto someone else's paper, and they were on the same page, and I saw the answer, and I was 10000% sure that was the correct answer. But I started wondering if I should actually write it down... what if I hadn't remembered the answer? Was it right? I ended up writing down the answer. I can still remember this over a decade later! I think I made the right choice....