Hello, my name is Liam.

I have been masturbating in public since I was a teen. There's just something about it that turns me on so much. I do this frequently, and I'm scared I'll get into more trouble.

When I was 16, I went out to go masturbate during the middle of the night. A couple of guys passed and saw me playing with myself. This one guy saw me, and he was disgusted. He started to say stuff then he left. I got so turned on. A couple of minutes later, he came back asking me what the hell I'm doing. I thought that he was going to beat me up, but turns out he wanted some action. He asked me if I was gay, but I kept denying it because I was scared. Then he asked me if I wanted to suck it. I never gave a guy fellatio before. I was really curious so I said sure. We went to this place where it was pitch black. He whooped it out, and I started sucking it. I was disgusted. It was one of the most disgusting experiences in my life. I tried to leave, but he was forcing me to stay. He was about to penetrate me, but a red car came. He got alarmed so it was the perfect time for me to run. When I got home, I started vomiting and crying. I keep on thinking to myself that if I hadn't gone out that night to masturbate. That would've never happened. It's because of this weird fetish I have that I almost got raped.

I want to stop, but I don't know how. When I don't do it for a while, it builds up. And I start getting frustrated.

Thanx for reading.